With or without you

Writing this blog, I realize how much I miss my girlfriend. Ten months ago she left Schiphol (Amsterdam) International Airport. Only last month she got news from the University of Groningen that she didn't got a scholarship, because India isn't seen anymore as a development country by the Foreign Affairs department of The Netherlands. Still the professor who wants to guide her during her PhD study, is willing to help her look for founding to let her study here. She will be needing at least € 15,000.00 per year for each year she will be in Groningen.
Another thing that has occupied my mind lately is the abolition of a law that prevents Dutch citizens to marry foreign people. To be able to marry a foreign girl, or man, a Dutch citizen needs to urn at least € 1.485.00 per month. only last month there was an announcement that our government is thinking of abolishing this law, for the simple fact that Dutch people move to neighboring countries to marry. thus evading this unjust law. After marring, mostly after living for a year abroad, they move back to The Netherlands and then they don't have to appeal to this law anymore,because they were married as European citizen. Since moving to Belgium or one of the neighboring countries is out of the question for me, we just have to wait till this law is abolished.
Knowing how disappointed she is for the last few weeks, we talked a lot by Yahoo messenger about this. Me trying to encourage her and comforting her. It's not easy for her now, since almost everybody has giving up on her and talking in a negative way to her. Even her family is pressing her to marry. Pressing her to look for a good candidate on th internet. Telling her that she can do her PhD after marring. Even for me this is a hard thing to swallow, since I try everything possible to get her to come over to The Netherlands.Chanting my ass off, doing activities, but I guess we've to be patient and wait till this law s abolished. Even now, November 18th is coming up, it's hard to believe that my prayers are looking to fail. Ever since I got back from Trets I chanted for more then one hour daily to find a way to overcome my sufferings and sending her daimoku as weel so she would be coming to me.
Since a few weeks i with sick leave, since i got an infection in my left foot due to a bruising. When I went to see the doctor again yesterday, he told me to hold rest for another 2 weeks. So this was for me bad news, since i won't make money now but have to relay on welfare money for the time being. It's a hard time for me right now.
Anyways .... we'll see what will happen in the next time.
One thing positive has happened in the meantime. I'm getting shakabukus by the numbers. Still single digits, but they are coming.
One thing for sure, with or without you I keep going on chanting to be together with you again, my sweetheart.
NMHRK
André